Valentine's Day 2020 - Amy

A few years ago I wrote a post about Valentine’s day and how miserable and depressing it can be for those who are single.  Every year Valentine’s Day just felt the same, a big disappointment. The older I got, the less I believed that I would find the man of my dreams. There is so much to deal with when it comes to me, I need help in a lot of ways that most people don’t. This feels quite embarrassing and awkward when it comes to dating. It will put some guys off and the ones who seem fine just don’t seem to understand. I like to think that there is more to me than my health problems and sight loss, but it takes very special people to see that too. 

I had been on and off a dating app for a while and last year I was on a bit of a break from it again. I was trying to avoid any unnecessary stress so I decided that I should leave it alone for a while. One night I was feeling a bit more relaxed so I decided to go on and see if there was anybody new on there. And there was. I saw from his profile that we had quite a few things in common. He said on his profile that he probably sounded boring, but the things that he thought sounded boring were the things that made him perfect for me. I really hoped that I would get to talk to him, and I did. We have talked every day since. He is one of those special people that can see beyond all the issues and he doesn’t let those issues put him off at all. He wants to be there for me and help however he can and I do with him. He understands a lot of things that most guys wouldn’t have the first clue about. 

In the past there’s always been that awkward moment when I have to mention my sight problems, with him it wasn’t awkward at all. He told me a few things and I told him a few things. We got it all out of the way from the very beginning and it was never awkward at all. We both have rubbish that we wish we didn’t have to deal with, but we deal with it together. 

So this year I am actually looking forward to Valentine’s Day. It will be my first one where I won’t be feeling all left out and lonely. And to make it even more special, it will be six months since I first met one of the most lovely guys in the world.